Yes, Every Day I Rise, Feed...

Yes, every day I rise, feed the Jester hands full of specialty pharmaceuticals and face a day where suicidal tendencies and latent anger swoop through my mind..

But Laughter , friends an pills go forth daily an do battle with varying degrees of success.

Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518
56-60, M
5 Responses Jun 3, 2007

I totally agree with the comments made by lizzy22 and aftermath.<br />
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I also know that there are diferent paths out of the dark place you are in<br />
The trick is to find the right one. Once you find it the only thing that<br />
Left to do is take it. Sometimes that is the most dificult step.

It's finding the right concoction and stickin' with it. <br />
A friend helped me find the right path and I am ever so grateful. ;~)

I'm so glad that you're feeling better!! I agree completely - i've also found that it's better to actually feel what you're feeling (even if it's uncomfortable) - at least you know you're alive!! And human... I guess the most important thing for us is to choose and nurture all that is good about our emotions and our lives - if we do that the bad stuff tends to recede a bit, as if it's scared of light :)<br />
Good luck to you too!

Thank you, Lizzy22 It has improved imeausrably sense then for the most part. I choose to endure a goodly portion of it rather than blot out so much else with the doom and gloom . I am glad for you that you have found something that works for you. Tis a ongoing fight to stay on top of what it takes to achieve the best quality of live for the time under the circumstances. <br />
good luck to you.

Mountainman... what a terrible way to live your life!! I feel for you, friend... as I've fought the same battle for most of my life. Fortunately, for me it's over now... and I hope that it will be for you, too... when the time is right!