I just feel like I don't know what I used to do, like, or anything.  I set goals and get fearful and back out.  I have gone back and forth with this for years.   I can't handle this for the rest of my life.  I take meds but they don't help.



gms49 gms49
41-45, M
2 Responses Jul 15, 2007

People ask me what it feels like and I tell them it's as if life itself had been drained of color and everything that remains is either black, white, or gray. I know that nothing has changed - only I have changed - but the perception becomes the reality. I am a sailboat without wind, stuck motionless in the doldrums - and - like the doldrums - I have no idea how long it will last.

The trick is to find the right med and the right dose. And like busybee said, there's always someone here to encourage you, so stop in often.