My Life Is Sad to Begin With

I was born with a small heart and lungs so I was constantly in the hospital. I can't even count the times I almost died. My dad left when I was 3 or whatever and I moved a lot with my mom. Anywho I met my dad a few years ago and I have a seperate dad who adopted me but I still have my biological mom. I was always thinking about my dad and wondering why he left..so naturually that was depressing. The thing that got me the most was people leaving in my life. That and going from 6th to 7th grade. It's like someone hit a switch. Goodbye lovnig girly girly hello sad goth emo chick. It was a scary scene. The first day at school the kids made me cry on the bus because of who my friends were and what I looked like. I was called all sorts of names and things weren't so great at home. I started to get really depressed and I was always sad and pissed off. My mom thought I was on drugs and didn't fathem the thought of her little girl hateing her.  I almost killed myself that year. It was a terrible time and I never want to go back. A lot has changed sense then and I'm doing much better. There are still those moments...where the sad just creeps in....where that darkness just fills your body..and your empty...hollow...alone. Those are what scare me because I NEVER want to be who I was in 7th grade. I just want to live my life to the fullest...is that to much to ask?

Eskimo Eskimo
18-21, F
19 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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getting to know you is the key. <br />
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love is the law, love is the key. you must love yourself. <br />
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no its not too much but you see we are living in real world not a fairytale.. I myself have ups and downs too and sometimes It gets really depressing..hoping that when you wake up it'l change but it wont! All I want to say is that never give up on yourself! I knw someone who just died recently.She commited suicide because she cudnt bare the problems anymore but it didnt solve her problems at all..so please dont ever think of ending your life again eventhough its hard..just look at the people around you the ones who make you happy and ignore the things that will just make you depress more Im working on that too so thats it I guess..tke care ok!

look on the bright side...this to shall pass...<br />
white a note on your mirror and repeat every day:<br />
I am healthy and beautiful human being ...and all is well!<br />
love u...

Hi my name is Yolanda. When I was 9 months old, I became sick, my parents took me to the hospital, the hospital said nothing was wrong, take me home. When my parents took mr home I became sicker. My parents then took me to another hospital that said she is sick and in order for her to live, we have to take her right leg off below the knee and all my fingers on my right hand. I have had so many surgery and have been yhrough trails and tribulations but I learned that there is a God and he won't put nothing on you, you can't bear. I have learned to not pay people attention. They are gonna talk about you if nothing is wrong. We all have problems, some people problems you can not see. Stay encourage because you are special in God way.

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Always remember that 100 years ago or less you were not on earth. Now you are. <br />
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So Obviously there must be something that you need to do in order to prove yourself, first, that you already exist. Find this thing inside you.

Always remember that 100 years ago or less you were not on earth. Now you are. <br />
<br />
So Obviously there must be something that you need to do in order to prove yourself, first, that you already exist. Find this thing inside you.

Always remember that 100 years ago or less you were not on earth. Now you are. <br />
<br />
So Obviously there must be something that you need to do in order to prove yourself, first, that you already exist. Find this thing inside you.

honey, look some people they are born unlucky, Life is never fair, you just can't run against your faith or destiny, the only way you can win is to flow with it and adjust yourself to it.<br />
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look for instance if i told you " you are stupid " . you have two choices right now <br />
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1- Be Sad and angry, fight and report it.<br />
2- Take it easy and ignore and be happy.<br />
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" who decides what to choose " its you.<br />
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look if anybody in this world hates you for who you are, let him to, you shouldnt change yourself for people dont worth or value you, you should believe in and be your self.<br />
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if you were going to die many times in your life why arent you dead by now !!! its because there is something in you, you are wanted to be in this life, you are something. i had common situations that you went through.. and honestly the only way to overcome that is to be really strong and i can feel that you are. <br />
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dont let anyone play with your feelings neither your self. why should you be sad or cry. why !! <br />
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you are the only one in this world that can change your reactions to any situation.<br />
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have a nice day :)

May God keep you in his loving arms. You are very mature beyond your years. I will keep you in my prayers and have our church put your name on our prayer list. God has a purpose for you. We should never take life for grant and always appreciate what we have. I hope and wish you a wonderful and heathy life recovery. Never stopping believing that you can pull you self out of this depression. Remember, to find yourself within. what you look forward to, and keep praying to God That he will lay his hands on you

A very sad story indeed. Your pain touched my heart. How the tender heart at that age would have cried in pain and for help. Thank GOD it is gone. Let us move ahead in life, healing other wounded souls with the experience of our life.

I HOPE u are ok hun, seems very understanding why u get down and low, i had a similar experiance my parents split when i was 2 and ahalf and me my mum and brother moved so much, school was hard, bullying and seeing my big brother getting bullyed was horrible, i hated my childhood, the most important thing is that we keep ourselfs strong and positive in life and try and make the most of what we do have.<br />
U seem to have done well now and have become stronger, always look forward never back on those harder days, smile and the world smiles with u xxx

try and think of something possitive for every negative, that lately has been helping me. good luck

Hi try this site free ebook and inspirational story about please search it in google thankgodforebook I had depression.

there are some really terrible people out there and they are always the ones to shout loudest, but there are those of us who understand. Be strong because the ones who understand do exist and we support you xx

It is never to much to ask to want to live your life to the fullest. You must always remember that it's your life to live, and you make the choices. But also remember that those kids were jerks and had no right to treat you that way. Be yourself, and only those who accept you the way your are are your friends and family.

you are mature beyond your age. the world is a better place with you. learn from the shortcommings of others. study their behavior. they all have patterns. seeing it is a key to understanding the world. <br />
good luck

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