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I Battle Depression

I Will Always Be Alone.

By: stillsingle
Written on August 1st, 2007
Age: 21-25 , Female
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  • ilhater

    You don't have to be single to be alone....being married can be even more lonely.

    Nov 26, 2011
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  • linksysfan

    there is no crowd to join ( hence the saying "join the crowd" makes no sense).. ;)

    Jul 25, 2011
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  • katz105

    Sometimes everything we need and want is right in front of us but we don't see it.. It's not what happens to us in life .. it's how we percieve it. It may sound a bit corny and zen like but is's true

    lkatz

    Dec 16, 2009
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  • hopemakena

    stick to God who i believe is more than a friend and all other things will be added an to you

    Dec 11, 2008
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  • realguy43

    i truly belive i was depressed and now am no more.. this is simple advice but reality. Remember when you couldn't ride a bike and suddenly you did and realized years later how can people not figure out how to ride a bike? well this is similar. here is the solution: You must accept yourself and your life. that's it..You think everyone else is happy. Go in search enging and look up i hate my wife.. i hate my husband...if you are said cause you are single being married will not make y ou happy. When can't u just be grateful you are healthy or maybe you have a good job. Go help out and be a big sis to someone who really has problems. I know it sounds cruel to say this to you but this is reality. I hate a horrible marriage but i am grateful my kids and i are healthy and i am smart enough to make a good living.



    think about it...ps these pyschologist don't know ****. Why don't you asked them about their personal life. you would be shocked!!!!!!!!!!

    Dec 6, 2008
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  • EasyGoGirl

    I'm in the same boat. Let's rock!

    Dec 4, 2008
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  • LakeShore

    Hello, new here.



    I definitely understand what you are going through. Relationships are a constant struggle for me as well and it seems like things will never be any different. Some days it is hard to smile, hard to feel validated, hard to be present with what is going on.

    The hobby is a great suggestion. I like to paint, and ride my bike. Exercise is one of the best things for you. It gets you out and you can become familiar with the people that you live around. There are a lot of people who suffer with the same problem of being alone. Help yourself out and give yourself the resources to overcome your fear. You can do it with little steps in a positive directions.

    Dec 2, 2008
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  • angelawr77

    I see that you posted this about a year ago, but I am going through the same thing. I'm curious to hear how things have turned out for you.

    Nov 28, 2008
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  • rosygal

    We can be in a room full of people and feel lonely,We can sit there and allow the world to go on with out us, but the truth of the matter is, its our own fault. I have lived on a hospital ward when I got mentaly ill, I never had a clue about what was going on or why I was ehere, but thays not important now because I have learnt to adjust and except my self for who I am. Lonleyness fortunatly is something we can change,it is not an lllness its a choice, you either want to be around people or you dont, I would rather sit in my own company with my own thoughts then sit there in a room full of people talking out of their back sides, Get to know your self better and you may be surprised, Take care. xx

    Aug 2, 2007
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  • PiscesDream

    I agree Shadowmuse is very wise in her comments here. To begin with don't play the blame game. I'm sure you have been doing it for years now and has it helped? Has it worked for you so far? Now is the time to love and approve of yourself; have fun and do things you want to do for yourself, try new things; watch the comedy channel or funny movies as much as you can. When you love and take good care of yourself, others will love and care about you. We ALL need to be loved and to me Love is very healing. Take heart and truly believe that you WILL find love. You never know what's around that next corner. I would like to suggest that perhaps you could be honest and tell people that you would like to find love, but you just haven't found the right one. They may possibly know someone who would be perfect for you.

    I wish you love!

    Aug 2, 2007
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  • ReformedAutomaton

    I think shadowmuse left some great comments there. Your story hit home with me because relationships (the lack thereof) are my biggest trigger for depression as well. I've dealt with depression for many years and it has kept me from thinking I am worth anything to anybody.



    I've been single for years and though I really do appreciate some things about it, I wish to be with someone as well. And I'm constantly reminded when I see couples or when I feel shy around a cute woman that I am alone and it feels hopeless.



    I try to hold out hope for the future though. I'm getting a better grip on what I need to do to feel better about myself. It's going to take time though. I hope you can find happiness with yourself because that is likely what is keeping you from connecting with someone else. Best of luck to you :-)

    Aug 2, 2007
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  • ReformedAutomaton

    I think shadowmuse left some great comments there. Your story hit home with me because relationships (the lack thereof) are my biggest trigger for depression as well. I've dealt with depression for many years and it has kept me from thinking I am worth anything to anybody.



    I've been single for years and though I really do appreciate some things about it, I wish to be with someone as well. And I'm constantly reminded when I see couples or when I feel shy around a cute woman that I am alone and it feels hopeless.



    I try to hold out hope for the future though. I'm getting a better grip on what I need to do to feel better about myself. It's going to take time though. I hope you can find happiness with yourself because that is likely what is keeping you from connecting with someone else. Best of luck to you :-)

    Aug 2, 2007
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  • shadowmuse

    I feel your pain, I'm going through a similar situation. It's very hard, especially at night when I'm alone with my thoughts.



    It's easier said than done to simply just hope for a brighter future, so try to focus on the things that make you happy. If you can't think of anything, now's the perfect time to take up a new hobby. :)



    I try distracting myself by watching funny movies (nothing romantic or else I'm bound to end up feeling worse), or I'll get lost in a good book, in which I'm able to momentarily stop thinking about why I'm so sad. I've also always found writing to be very beneficial.



    Try your best to concentrate on yourself right now- not worrying about if you'll end up with someone. Learn something new, do something that you will be proud of, or hang around a new place. In time, you will be happier with yourself, and hopefully the pain from all of this will be eased.

    Aug 2, 2007
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