I Love Her

I miss her so much. The love of my life died in November of 2007 and I don't know what to do anymore. I see her everywhere, whether I'm awake or not. I love her so much and I can't think about anything else. It seems like with every passing second it gets exponentially worse.

We were together for over two years and every second was absolutely magical. She was (still is) my other half. She made me a better person and loved me unconditionally, as I still feel about her. I still hear her tapping at my window sometimes, as if she's still there. I would give absolutely anything to be with her again, even if it were for just a moment. I died the moment she did, but I'm still forced to walk around and pretend to live, alone.

We kept our relationship a secret from the world. It wasn't out of shame or because we thought we were doing something wrong, it was honestly because we didn't think it was anyone's business. We solely belonged to eachother and we always will. 

Now that she's gone I feel like everything good in me was torn away and all that is left is this empty shell that can't feel anything besides misery. I can't even cry anymore. The most I can do is force my eyes to get all teary but nothing comes from it.

She was (is) my one true love and I will never love again.

I miss her so much :..(

godsmack666 godsmack666
18-21, M
6 Responses Feb 8, 2009

i lost my love to cancer years ago and for 2 tears i just existed. the pain felt like it wouldn't go away. we grew up together as friends then it blossomed in high school but just before he turn 18 3 days before his b-day the Lord took him home. i don't undestand it yet to this day why. as time went on it got better, but i still think of him. just the other day i cried so hard as i layed in bed wishing to be with him and i am 47 now in a relationship. i won't say it goes away but u do learn to live on because i know that is what he would want me to do. i have 4 beautiful kids, 3 grand kids and 1 grand kid on the way. i am divorced from there father but love my kids. so let go and let God. GG :-)

I'm so sorry to here about that! but if you really turely love her then you'lltry and live life like you would if she was still here. good luck!! if you ever need ne thing I'll be here!!

I'm so sorry for your loss! I understand so much of what you feel. When the person you love is everywhere, but no where...can't have her again and can't let go because she's every where and in everything. I'm so very sorry.

God, that's terrible. You must feel like the loneliest person in the world, but you've got to keep fighting. She definitely wouldn't want you to live a life of misery.<br />
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Have you gotten any counseling? If not, you should absolutely try it. They can help you work through all the feelings you're having. You don't need to shoulder the burden all by yourself, there are people willing to help you, if you let them.<br />
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Best of luck, man. You're still living, you've got to keep yourself sane, somehow...

I am so sorry. I know nothing anyone can say to try to comfort you will be what you need to hear. Unfortunatly this is just one of those things you have to work the pain through. I am here if you ever need to talk.

sorry to hear that,the only thing that i can say is that you have an angle by your side,we may never understand why Jesus do the things that he do.