You Just Have to Live Into It

I have been battling depression for almost 10 years now. For the first four years I had no help, no one I could go to for help and no one to comfort me. 6 years ago I was taken to a psychiatrist and given medication to try to keep me from harming myself. Everyday I wondered when it would get better, when life would go my way. I was sick of my parents always saying I had been such a happy child and they had no idea where it all went wrong.

As I grew older and more mature I began to realize I may never get better or less depressed. Every day for the rest of my life may just turn out to be an uphill battle. Then I stumbled across words that changed my life. A dear friend told me that "true strength is in confronting the darkest parts of our hearts and making them a part of who we are, not hiding them from the world." I think the only reason depression holds so much sway over us is because society tells us it is unnatural. It becomes something we don't want, an infection of the mind. If we accept it for what it is and how it defines a part of us, I think we will find it less disagreeable. There is no getting rid of depression for good, you just have to live into it.

AphroditesAdept AphroditesAdept
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 7, 2007

sorry, break,<br />
...used to 'cure' many naturally occuring, normally healthy, states of mind, and forms of behaviour, simply because they are deemed 'inappropriate' by society, but which, in fact, are fundamental elements in the healthy individuals' emotional and behavioural palette.<br />
Forgive what may appeara rather verbose post, I was inspired by your post above, as a brother Celtic Pagan<br />
Love and Light<br />

Hi, I hope you are doing ok, I joined your Celtic Pagan group, and checked your profile as the founder of the group, So, hi again!<br />
I have suffered terribly from depression for years. I went to counsellors, therapists, doctors, went on four different antidepressants, the latest one on highest dosage for years, all to no avail.<br />
Then about ten months ago, my (then) partner found out about passive aggressive personality disorder, PAPD, and, even while my relationship and life fell apart, certain things began to fall into place.<br />
I now realize that the depression and anxiety which had afflicted me so intensely were part of the symptomology associated with this very disorder. That's why I could not successfully work through them - their root cause remained with me and effectively ruined my life. Now I am hopeful for positive change, and am greatly helped by knowing and learning more about this disorder, and also my faith, the practice of which has been a great provider of succour, consolation, and balance.<br />
I am particularly struck by your insight into the universality of depression as a natural human experience. I totally agree, and find encouragement from your observation.<br />
I am convinced that passive aggression is also universally manifest, as a natural expressive response, by all people. When it becomes the dominant form of ex<x>pression, it then becomes damaging, and must be addressed as a disorder.<br />
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I agree that psychiatric methodology can be and is often

Accepting that you have a problem with depression is the first step on the road to recovery. Many people cannot cope with the unknown or things that are intangible.