Off and On and Off and On

I am a co-dependent, I know I am a codependent and I don't like it at all.  I am in a great marriage and yet I can never relax because I never feel that I am good enough, pretty enough, smart enough and I hate it.  I have "on" days where everything is great and I feel my husband loves me and then the "off" days come and I get depressed and start thinking he is only with me for the moment until the "right" one comes along.  Of course understanding I am a codependent helps me to fight the tendency to help him constantly and be a nag and a needer but it is hard and it hurts knowing it.  I don't know if I will ever be able to just relax and say "whatever happens...happens" nothing I do with stop it or slow it down if it is meant to happen, of course I am only talking about doom because I never make that statement thinking good things will happen.  Oh lord, what to do....

beautifulk beautifulk
2 Responses Feb 23, 2009

I understand you completely. I am always thinking that I am never good enough for my husband and that he is with me because he feels pity for me. I hate thinking this way. It is very frustrtating, but just know that you are not alone.

How long you been married?