At 12 I started to notice a mood and personality change and have chalked up my sadness, mood swings, lack of interest, and inconsistent insomnia to near comatose states to being a pre-teen/teenager. Finally, at the age of 18 I decided to see a psychologist and was immediately diagnosed with major depressive disorder within an hour. I was prescribed Klonopins and Celexa to combat the insomnia and depression. After the first week of taking the celexa I was so nauseous I couldn't move and spent a lot of time over the toilet. The second week I was so fatigued I couldn't get out of bed. The third week I went manic and by the end of the week my mood swings had led me to slit my wrist and end up in the psych ward. During my intake in the ER they ran blood panels that revealed that my thyroid was hyper. After 2 more full blood panels over the period of 2 months they confirmed my hyperthyroidism.
With depression and hyperthyroidism having such similar symptoms no one is quite sure if all of my emotional anguish is accredited to the hyperthyroidism or depression.
However, I understand the conflict of having a mental disorder in addition to an auto-immune disease... And it's hell. Both are such emotionally and physically draining diseases and its more than hard to fight both.

I just turned 19 and since I was diagnosed with both only a few months ago I've been at my wits end trying to find something or someone to ease my struggling.
I'm nauseous constantly which has aided the hyperthyroidism in making me a sickly looking stick and I wish I could go back to eating 10 slices of pizza or 3 pints of ice cream in one sitting.
I'm so scared of the thyroid treatments and I'm tired of (without being reasonably provoked) crying all the time. I feel so helpless and even though I have support it's not the same as having someone who understands actually living with these diseases and it's incredibly frustrating.
How does one happily live with this?
Bobbyckat Bobbyckat
22-25, F
2 Responses Aug 15, 2014

Ask for a prescription for an Antiemetic. With the right one you can get past the nausea and start to feel better. Often organic issues cause the symptoms of depression. Keep talking to your docs and be honest about what is going on in your life.
Keep notes to take with you to the appointments if you need to so you can share all symptoms accurately.

My first bout of phobia hit me at 12 also ever since i am suffering consciously ! ;(

Pre-teen years are already so tough and it's a shame we ignore these things because of age...

I grew up in a different setting people had no clue what was going on

After my mom saw a scar that I had carved into myself we got into a huge fight and I told her I was depressed and she said it was normal... I just learned to live with whatever I was feeling thinking it was normal.
Have you seen a professional now that you know you have a problem?

I suffered big time now m on meds now

Have they been helping?


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