Feeling lower and lower but I'm stuck in the classic catch 22. I can't feel love without trust and I can't trust enough to love. I guess this is how my life has turned out.

I hate this world with a passion. There is no love in this world. Only the foolish believe in that. Or that's what I used to think. Sometimes I think of happiness but I know I will never reach is. I can't trust enough to nor will I ever.

I've had enough of letting other people twist my will. I even tried using my money to bribe people into loving me. You know the saying "Money can't buy happiness?". That's mostly bullshit. It's come closer than an human has to making me feel happy. But I don't like to throw my money around. People start caring when they see how much you make. Funny isn't it?
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1 Response Aug 15, 2014

I predict you will eventually break down. I did. I am now married 30 years. I don't know if that is good news for your owe bad.