I'll be honest. Its been a up and down day. Talking to a few people and such. Some complete fakes with saying they are depressed and wanting to harm themselves. And others that are actually suffering. I was nice to actually talk to people in my shoes.

Will I say I'm better... Nah, I can't. Cause id be lying. I can say they made me feel good, but that was the best it got... Deep down im broken, and shouldn't be here. And I hope I cheered some folks up and made them feel good. But in the after math.

Just cause I make someone feel good doesn't mean I'm a good person... Otherwise I would never have posted the ones I loved. Or my friends, and would have a good caring loving family... Everything is my fault...
lostunit lostunit
31-35, M
2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

Give yourself more credit. It's good that you at least WANTED to make someone feel better. Just because you don't see much value in yourself, doesn't mean there's nothing good about you. It's like you don't even want to believe there's ANYTHING good about you.

Not anymore.

Once did. When I was with her and everything seemed like I was on a path of being someone, and feeling alive.

Like they say, there is no point in living if you can't feel alive.

To be honest, you seem like a good guy that's just felt too much pain in his life. You still manage to be polite and thankful to the people who try to encourage you on this site. I'm sorry you feel the way you do. I wish there was some way you could feel alive again. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

Thank you future.

Just had a drink... Might be passing out soon...

Actually it does mean you're a good person. You're just too afraid of the world to go find the people who love you.