Rant time I guess.

I honestly don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm stuck in this horrible state and I just want to feel ******* normal. I've never liked myself. Even when I was a little kid I've hated myself. And I can't do this anymore. I feel like no one listens to me when I tell them I can't get out of bed in the morning. And no one cares that I haven't been outside in months. My doctor doesn't care if I tell her I'm miserable she doesn't take me seriously. And no one listens to me when I tell them anything. I don't know what to do I can't live like this anymore. I don't want to die but it's all I ever think about. I can't go for walks because I think about jumping infront of cars. And I can't stand out side because I think about jumping off the roof.
I can't take it anymore. I'm losing my damn mind and no one listens to me. Im convinced no one cares if I'm here or not.

I wouldn't kill myself. I don't think I have it in me since the time I ODed.

Ugh I don't know.
Please don't tell me "omg don't kill your self it doesn't solve your problems" that doesn't help me.
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4 Responses Aug 25, 2014

I know how you feel. :(

I just want to say I know the feeling, not knowing what to do with yourself. I feel that all the time.

I'm here to listen :)
You can tell me anything

Just wanna say... You're loved a lot. It's gonna be okay. 🌹