It has become increasingly difficult lately for me to even be around people. It feels like there is just a gaping hole in my heart all of the time and it's like a block of lead weighing me down.
My parents have started to notice and I'm becoming quite antisocial. I can't walk through the supermarket without getting really angry with people.
It's like after suffering for so long, I can't suffer people anymore. I have been depressed for six years now and at first I was still a considerate person. Now I just have no patience and I feel as if the world is closing in on me.
My brother constantly mentions things which make me anxious, and in turn it makes me mad at him.
I've been questioning my life more and more lately and I've been keeping journals to manage my thoughts. I just feel like I don't feel anything for others anymore. I've never had a friend who is always there for me when I need them (not online) and I just feel like I have lost all faith and trust in others.
I have Avoidant and Schizoid personality disorder so that doesn't help either :/ I only ever feel two things: emptiness or anxious.
The2ndLaw The2ndLaw
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 25, 2014

I feel same exact way you do it seems like.. If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to message me I'd love to talk