Suicidal thoughts extremely overwhelming

My parents who have shown to have no interest or sympathy for my well being and this was after all the screaming and abuse we all sat down and it was all about how they felt

I'm depressed, suicidal and am a recovering addict and my parents still put themselves before there own kid who's unstable in all areas

I'm thankful I have friends that help me and have been supporting me so it's not the end of the world. My parents have been on vacation with my sister so I've been staying at family friends house but they can't be there for me all the time

Right now I'm home alone all my friends are busy and I have no one to talk to, I can't handle how my family treats me and the worst part is I lost contact with everyone who could get me drugs or go to the liquor store for me

Idk what I'm going to do for the rest of the night I know there's tomorrow but my parents come home then and I'm scared to be home with them I can't go back to any of my friends house I already over welcomed my stay they have to take care of themselves

I just need a voice to tell me they love me the way I am that everything is going to be ok
Vaughn37 Vaughn37
18-21, M
5 Responses Aug 28, 2014

I hope you find peace and strength. Do your best to stay away from drugs cuz it will only make it worse. Maybe you could ask your parents about a rehab program?

Maybe they WANT to help you and be there for you, but don't know how. Have you tried to communicate? Often a good counselor can bridge the gap.
I know and understand how you feel. I've been battling depression the majority of my life. I am 48 now.
My parents never understood me. Still don't. Now I have 4 children, 3 of them adults. My youngest 16 yr son is battling severe depression.
I try to communicate with him, and it is difficult. My daughter went through this few years ago and still battles it.
So maybe it is a generation gap communication problem and possibly genetic.

It's the communication that was the problem. After years of yelling and being ignored as in literally no words will be spoken if we're in the same room we sit down with eachother and all they had to say was how they felt how I've effected the family I try to argue that I'm not the adult here and try to explain how I've felt but they disregard it, I'm very polite and respect elders but the fact that even sitting down and talking they've still shown no care for my well being

I'm sorry. My prayers go out to you sincerely. I don't know if you pray or believe, but sincerely I don't know what to say. I do believe my prayer will help. I pray you find love and true friendship in your life very soon. I don't know your predicament or life, but I KNOW you are hurting. My heart goes out to you.

No I do and having a closer relationship with god is something I'm working on as well. Thank you so much and I feel blessed that you would and you and everyone on here will be in my prayers as well

Good, I am very glad to hear that. It makes ALL the difference. Things WILL change and get better with you. Hang in there! I had a rough teenage life, feeling unloved my whole life. Finally when I was 18 living on my own, I could feel some independence and freedom. My loneliness comes and goes. You have to only give your trust and heart to w
WORTHY people who love and honor you back. Peace and love to you! Good night

Thank you so much ma'am you are a very nice and beautiful person , god bless :)

Never completely close the door on your family. You will need them. They love you but do not understand you. I hope they understand you some day. Letters do help.

Listen to some good music. Watch a good movie. Try to Stay positive, and pray if you believe. Try writing your parents a genuine heartfelt letter. This way they cannot interrupt you, or yell or say inappropriate things to hurt you. This way they could read it again and again to let it SINK IN! Use your words wisely and be mature, because you do not want to later regret what you wrote. Try to think of ONE good compliment or good aspect you admire about your parents. It will lighten things up. This way you do not have to deal with emotional pain of abusive yelling, accusing.

Thank you and that's something I'm trying to work on. I've had separate conversations and even then it's about them and my perspective or feelings aren't as important as them I can't even remember the last time I've been on a "family vacation" with them and my sister. sometimes I feel like the ugly step child but I'm 18 now and in planning on moving in with a friends and helping them pay rent maybe that way I can have closure, I won't stop talking to them only because I have to be there for my sister

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If you EVER need/want to talk just message me. I'll listen 😃

Either or

Lol but seriously, I'm talking to you now, if you need to talk I'll listen

You can and will get through this. Keep telling yourself that. I wish I could give you a big hug right now. Just know you're not alone, I know how you feel and have been through a similar situation.

Thank you that's really sweet of you and I know I'm just in a really dark place right now but thanks for the support

I wish you the best. I'm here if you ever need to talk to someone.

I have a similar struggle and I'm here for you

Thanks and if u ever need someone to talk to in here as well

Message me if you want