The Deeper the Better

So I cut again tonight...it makes the depression, the pain, the lonliness, everything...just fade. For a short while anyway.

I've been depressed since I was thirteen. That was when my mothers OCD got so bad that there was little in my life not affected by it. Her craziness...the cleaning...checking...paranoia, everything was so out of control. Having manic depression run in my mothers side of the family is bad enough...but having to live with her while she went through her paranoid-OCD days was nuts.

My official diagnosis is mild depression...and for a long time I had it 'under control'. But the truth is that I just got better at hiding it. At telling people what they want to hear.

And if I ever have another person tell me that it is all in my head...I will literally kick them in the face.

GraceBecomesHer GraceBecomesHer
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 17, 2007

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