How Do You Know ?

How do you know when you are having a breakdown ?

Is it something that hits you unexpectedly or is it something you slowly sink into?

I have been wondering about that myself for quite some time and wondering if I am experiencing one.

I know there are obvious signs of depression but when you mostly feel a sort of "quiet desperation", no anger outbursts, no crying, no nothing, just numbness, is that a breakdown ?

Lately I have felt very overwhelmed with life. I feel that I  don´t really have what it takes to make it and I feel torn to pieces inside. I am clueless about life. I am letting it take over instead of allowing me to be the one in control. I am lost. Life as it is has lost its glow for me,too.  I am just going thru the motions,right now,  like a programmed robot but, I am feeling quite scared and helpless in not understanding what all this is really about.

 

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5 Responses Mar 16, 2009

OH sweet UC! If life was so easy to understand we wouldn't need each other. I don't know about you, but I've been very down lately, but there are reasons which I will not get into. Is there something that triggered this? Have you talked to you doctor? <br />
I can't speak for anyone else, but for me I have some serious anger and resentments that are being turned inwards and it's doing a number on me like you wouldn't believe. I need to pray for these people, but right now all I want to do is beat them up. That's not going to do me any good at all, so I stay angry and when I'm ready I will pray that what I want for myself they will have and release the anger and be willing to be willing to forgive. THat's all I'm capable of right now. It's one thing after another and I'm not that strong. I want off of this stupid planet and I want out of this stupid hard life. Is it going to happen? I think not! I want to be healthy and happy, but no matter how much I pray for it, it doesn't happen. I want to be at peace and do you think that's happening? NO! I don't know what to do anymore and I don't really care at least that's what I keep telling myself. If I keep telling myself I don't care, I sure hope it will happen, because caring sure sucks when you are the only one who seems to care. <br />
Where is God when you need Him the most?

i suppose everyone gets like that at one point in their life.<br />
i often find myself not knowing which way to turn. maybe you just need to spend some time alone, write down your thoughts and feelings, think about what you can do to make yourself feel better.<br />
it's not impossible to sort this out. It's just going to take a little time. and support. find a friend who you can talk to. even if it's only on the internet. i find it helps. because bottling it up doesn't help in the slightest.

Maybe it's hormonal - you could be approaching the menopause. I only say that because I am in the same age group as you and feel much less in control of my emotions than I used to, and wonder if that has something to do with it.

i feel the same way... all the time...<br />
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every once in a while ill cry or get angry or sad... but not often<br />
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and im scared to tell anybody about it

I know this feeling. I hope it passes for you soon. If it doesn't, you might need to see someone about it. Only you know for sure. In the past I've found doing volunteer work has helped me.