I Cant Really Say That I've Battled It.

I've been so depressed for so long. Everyday I wake up and have to find a reason not to hurt myself. That reason is usually my son. I feel so sick I cant eat. When I sleep its usually only for 4 or 5 hours and lately even that is being interrupted. I wanna get drunk to make the nights go quickly, but when I drink and I'm alone I'm scared of what I might do. I hate myself so much rite now, but if it wasnt for my son I think I would have just ended it all already.

RabidusDecorus RabidusDecorus
26-30, F
3 Responses Mar 20, 2009

hang in there. i've been battling it too since i was young but i always hope for a better tomorrow.

I was on some meds before for depression. I found that they made me so completely numb that I would cut myself just to make sure I could feel.

I hope you join in the battle. There are a lot of us fighting! Have you considered medication? Most antidepressants do help with sleep -- and that can make a huge difference.