Going Through Too Much

I am 21 years old. About a month ago i lost my job and have been finding it hard to find another one. I have so many bills to pay including a car note, car insurance, student loans, cell phone and varies credit card bills. I have been trying so hard recently for the last month i have applies for about 50 plus jobs and seem like i have gotten no where at all. What makes it worse is that my mother, even when i ask for help. And trust me i am never the person who asks anyone for anything. I try to be strong and stand on my own two feet. Back to my mother, i have asked my mother on several occasions if she could help me or co-sign for a loan for me until i get on my feet. But on each attempt she denies me. I have bills that are over due, i have bills collector calling my home and what makes matters worse i may be pregnant. My boyfriend helps as much as he can, but it is hard for him as well, because he has several felonies on his record.

As each day goes by without hearing from a employer or without any income besides my boyfriend. The sadder and sadder i become. I cry for no reason at all or just sleep all day. When it is time to go on interviews i put on this happy face but in the inside i am crying. I don't know what else to do. I don' think i can take this anymore. I try and try and i get no where.  I don't know what else to do.  Things are getting worse every day and i am ready to just give up. Why ME? Why Now?

CeeCee CeeCee
22-25, F
1 Response Sep 9, 2007

I beleive that you will find something inthe line of work you enjoy very soon .DO NOT give up on yourself. Will your Father or Other family members be of help ? How about your boyfriends parents ? You can always ask for State help go apply or apply for unemployment till you get back on your feet. God Bless and Best Of All TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!