Why Me

I am a Young talented and extremely creative person, I have a gift of seeing things and a creative mind that is not of this earth, I have a successful business, lovely home, car , man in my life you name it i have it........3 months ago i don't even know how it started or why or what caused it , but i seem to have fallen off the planet!

Anyone who knows me would never ever suspect that I was depressed i am always so positive and such a workaholic. Well lately I cant stop crying i get these panic attacks and I feel as if i cant cope i wont make it ......sometime not even through the night nor the day. I cant get out of bed some days and it even gets so bad that i just don't know why I am here.

What to happen to all of us, maybe I have been pushing myself so hard , doing so much for everyone and my system just said enough it cant do it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I really don't know but all i know is I want the old me back. I look in the mirror and I see someone else , i cant find things funny and even my loving partner just irritates me and I who is normally so caring and passionate just cant be bothered to even kiss him.

I am very intuitive and have this hectic gift, maybe i am meant to pursue it to live it and do it , why am I so afraid what happened to all of us .........................we lost ourselves and we are allowing this to control us...... SO I begin my journey today I am going to do whatever I can when i feel up to it that is to fight this and to find a cure for all of us!!!!