3 Years Ago....

3 years ago I found out my boyfriend of 12 years had been cheating on me with another woman for a few years. I was pregnant with our second child. He ended it then and we worked everything out and I actually started trusting him again, but have been battling depression again here lately after I found pictures on his computer of them together. I just happened to find them while trying to find more pictures to make a slide show for our girls. He's somewhere where I can't talk to him right now and I don't know what to do about it. I have not been able to sleep or eat because my mind is racing. We are planning on getting married next year, and I can't help but wonder if this is going to be a mistake now. All I can do is sit here and cry. I feel like he's cheating on me all over again.

butterflylvr butterflylvr
3 Responses Aug 5, 2009

Thank you. That helps alot. I do love him very much and I know he loves me, it just hurt when I saw those pictures that he told me he had deleted. I have put his computer away and am trying my best to forget they are there until he comes back home. Then we will sit down and talk about it, and go from there. At least I will be more calm and collected then!! I have already been battling depression with not being able to see or talk to him, and this just made things so much worse. But I am keeping my chin up and trying to stay positive and happy so our girls are happy as well.

...u can never trust someone completely...but ur in love with this person right?....love yourself too and make a choice for once, not for him, for u....<br />
...if u feel u cant trust him then dont....<br />
if you get married without trusting one another, ur really going to regret it....<br />
...have faith in urself...*smiles*...i know u'll make the right decision....<br />
if your not sure, than i strongly suggest u go to the maury show. they show from 9am to 11am on weekdays.....theres a lie detecter test and everything...<br />
...find out if you deserve better than him....

its the worst feeling ever not knowing what they are thinking and what they actually want, u ask yourself are they only staying with u for the children or just because they feel guilty. then its the , they dont fancy me, its her they want. i know what it is like hun im in similiar situation. but i kinda think to myself they wouldnt b hear if they didnt want to, its usually easier for them to walk. the worst thing is not knowing who they are anymore, where is the person u met? the battle for trusting them is hard. the answer is really difficult, but i think maybe give them the space to think and breathe and dont nag on and wait till they come to u for a glimpse of the man u once loved. stay well hun sx