I am so fed up of being weak and have to rely on someone to always be there( boyfriends especially) in my life. I'm afraid to be alone. I have so many debts, thinking about it sometimes makes me wanna kill myself, thinking what have i to live for, there is no way i can repay this. I am so desperate, frustrated, dissapointed with myself. I feel like i'm in a big hole where there is no way for me to climb out. I just need someone to listen to me without judging me.