Just Healing Now..
Hey guys! My name is Zoe, i am 14 and have been depressed since i was in grade 4, people called me stupid, in grade 3 and under i was me. goofy. funny. fun. kind. just great. And i could be myself... Then in grade 4 i became friends with tis evil girl and we became "best friends" she was so evil i cried in my sleep sometimes. And people didn't lik em anymore, i couldn;t be myself, i was sad, i thought i was stupid so i started working instead and fooling around,IN grade 5 i moved to a different school, Alot of people didn't like me because i was white. They were raciest. And then i went into this program that made me feel even more stupid. And i forgot how to communicate how i use to with people. In grade 6 i forgot how to say "hi" to someone Literally, like i didn't know what to do whne they said hi. In grade 7 i could say hi but they wouldn;t hear me, and i didn't have alot of friends, and i was mean and bossy and bitchy because i was so sad, and wanted to gte out of there.
In grade 8 i went to a different school, There i made friends, but it was hard, everyone that goes there admits that. And i took a hugre step up, i could half way be myself, and then i lost my virginity at 13 and people fouhnd out coz of my friend told people, and i had a ***** rep.
Now I'm in grade 9... im trying so hard, and guys somedays i just want to put a gun to my head, it's been so long, i've been depressed almost my whole life, at least thats what it feel like. I like to act, so i joined the drama club this over club, a few other clubs, and im audtioning for the arts program at my school.
I'm a really really good actress. I did one little skript in grade 8 and my teching my amazed, and my class seemed like they left self concious aterwards. and they were like " whoa like was realy good..." so i know im good at that, im good at drums, music, i love musicals, and im going to face my fear, my goofy fun ness! will come out to new people! pray for me, send me luck! it's been so long, i want to be happy again! <3