Troubled By My Mistakes

Nice to hear from another Aspie. I have not been as successful in my life as you seem to be. Did you finish up some classes? Did you hang in there?

Hey I just started college and I'm going through something very similar. My depression didn't start in college though, I've had it for a while now. I just wanted to know how things worked out for you. Let me know, I would appreciate it.

Hi,
This sounds so much like my own story. I don't know if I've the syndrome you mentioned about but I am so much like what you described. I got accepted to a very good program at university but I just couldn't make any friends and felt lost and depressed, I skipped classes, literally got D and C in almost every course and have been screwing up my career till last semester. Now I've realized my mistakes and I am trying to do well as I am on academic probation now but I still doubt myself and wonder if it is too late now to achieve my goals...
The best tip I could give to new college students would be to just hang in there despite of anything...Otherwise you would really end up in something terrible. I coudln't enrol myself in courses because I didn't meet the prerequisite grades...I know I really need to work hard now and I am on towards it...

Do you know that this is a spirit that has took a hold of your life and it keeps on creeping in second by second.
You might think after reading this that I'm crazy,
but I know about these things.
Me being a preachers wife I encounter these things all of the time.
When you start having these feelings of wanting to end it all.
Just remember this
Just start calling on the name of Jesus.
My little sister
Feeling so alone is one of the worst feeling that anyone
could ever go through in there lives but it also says in Gods word that
"He'll NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR EVER FORSAKE YOU."
and that "HE WOULD STICK CLOSER THAN ANY BROTHER."
Get back with me I would like to here from you.

MAY GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!!!

Do you know that this is a spirit that has took a hold of your life and it keeps on creeping in second by second.
You might think after reading this that I'm crazy,
but I know about these things.
Me being a preachers wife I encounter these things all of the time.
When you start having these feelings of wanting to end it all.
Just remember this
Just start calling on the name of Jesus.
My little sister
Feeling so alone is one of the worst feeling that anyone
could ever go through in there lives but it also says in Gods word that
"He'll NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR EVER FORSAKE YOU."
and that "HE WOULD STICK CLOSER THAN ANY BROTHER."
Get back with me I would like to here from you.

MAY GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!!!

Hi,Ciao i know yor feelings .i can almost drectly relate to your feelings,i am also pursuing my masters in america..currently in fall...even i have bunked a lot of classes and say to my parents that i have good grades.Apart from this even i have some other problems plz check my experiences and comment on it.

Great job on hanging in there! And kudos for the courage it took to seek out and continue seeing a therapist.

While school is important, taking care of yourself is more so. If school is causing you more anxiety, taking a break (or reducing your course load) to work on finding yourself might be a great idea. Talk to your therapist about this if it's something you see as a step toward your goals for reaching your happy place. ;)

There are thousands of others out there going through similar things. In time, everything will get better. Keep your head up. Do things that make you feel comfortable and happy. Challenge your fears in a way that empowers you and helps reduce your anxiety. Compliment and reward yourself when you do something good for yourself.

Keep up the good work. ;)

You're never alone Itshannah!
I just finished up-dating a similar story to yours, but when I clicked on 'Submit' I found the page had expired and I lost all of the up-dates. SPEWIN!

If you write a long one, copy and paste it into a back-up Word doc or such before you click anything... I learned that one the hard way.

Anyway, hang in there Sister. It's worth it in the long-run.
There is also happiness to be had in this life... From personal experience I know this to be true!

I also found the hard way that no-one but you can fix your life. People can help by offering support, encouragement, therapy etc. But in the end, it comes down solely to the action YOU take.
So far you seem to be doing very well with it.

Winston Churchill once gave a speach at the graduation ceremony of a boys school that consisted of nine words.
"Never give up. Never give up. NEVER give up." He lived with bipolar syndrome and was still a great success.
His articles on what he called the 'black dog' of depression are very helpful.

I wish you the very best of good fortune, health, happiness and long-life.

Sincerely,
M

Good morning to you!! Reading your story made me feel like I was reading my own words. It's a struggle dealing with depression and anxiety, I myself started after I quit my career as a nurse, had a nervous breakdown. There is an over-the-counter medication (can find at Walgreens, CVS ect.) called Calms Forte, all natural ingredients and is for anxiety, sleeplessness ect. There's a whole line of products, with no adverse side effects. I went all natural with anxiety and depression meds mainly because the ones the Dr. had given me (seroquel, Zoloft, ativan, xanax, elavil, prozac, zyprexa, ect) made me feel better a while, then I became a zombie and honestly someone I didn't even know. After weaning myself off for about 2 months, I felt as though a cloudy haze had lifted! My big thing is to trust your Dr. and be open about how things make you feel or even not making you feel. I'm so happy to hear that you go see a therapist, that takes courage. How are things going for you at the present?

Always remember that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel, and it's usually a friend Or family member cheering you on!!

Love, Peace and Happiness Always!!:-)

itshannah---- im dan im glad you are still here i do know how you feel its hard but think of the happyest time in your life. it sometimes helps a hole lot. i had a stroke at 36 had own company i biult homes loved it now i am relearning math. even writing. if it wasent for this computer i could not talk to many people. my spelling is realy bad now. i had an assoceates degree. in welding and atomotive. iv tryed to no avael to die 4 times . i was on 27 diferent meds a month from 2001 to 2008 i finally said thats it. its over. no more meds. thay sent me to a place called wichita hospital. thats in texas. you do not want to go to one ov those places. its bad. thay held me down and forced the meds that thay could not give in shots and hed my mouth shut. so i would swallow. that was just last year. im 44 now. i finnelly relented. just to get out u have to suck *** to get out or even lie. if your with it at all. thats very hard for two months iv been thinking of goig away . iv been married for 20 years now she works. im on ss. income or as beth says retired im no more around here than a 10 year old .i have two bank accounts. at the time still do but acording to the doctors and the goverment i can not touch them i have to ask my wife to go get it for me. my name is on the accounts but the bank or sociol security. will not even talk to me about anything. cant even coll to see how much i even have in ether account. at first i was parolized on my right side. now unless you now me you cant tell it ever happened. i have somthing like parkinsons. since then i shake a bit my memory is at best .if i do something today after a few days i mite remember things 2 and a half to 3 years latter. my family is graet but some of you know how i am feelig . i not saying by hwho but was told you are not the person i new. thay say now i have depression. angziety. sorry there are more but cant remember tha names of the other two thngs .i go to old freinds to talk everyday. just so i dont think about going on to a better place. sorry i went on for so long. would love to find someone to talk to . about your problem try to find someone to go do something with if its only going to the store to get food os a coke. or to the student center, someone will start a conversation if not just walk up i know its hard. todo. but stand there thay will say something then try to say something sometimes thats all it will take. i hope very much that it works out for you. it sounds like you are to yuong to be thinking about that bottle.on the dressor. there is more pain ther than you hopefully will ever know. if you need to talk it mite help you i know it would help me. just to talk to anyone. about your bottle. iv thought about bridge pillers. guns . pills. and a hol lot more think about the ones that love you. you may not think so but thay do love you very much. even tho you dont think so. thay do. im not saying i wont think about doing it a lot. please talk to someone. most of the time thay will help .i have three kids the last one is just starting collage. i had money put up for collage for all three. its goingto be close on my son. but he will finnish. thay have todo better than i have some of you men will know what i mean about not being able to get your or any money . it makes you feel worthless. right now my life revolves around doctors appointments. im trying hardbut dont knw if i can go on much longer. think a lot of just getting in my truck. and just drive. till i find a small tawn. where noone will ever find me and try to start over. its not that hard in this day and time. if anyone knows of someone to talk to i would love to know ther name oremail address. hannah i do hope to here from you on here again. i know its hard but give it a wile longer. hopefully things will get better you have a lot of things to do in your life please try to stay around to do them.dont do any of the things iv talked about here it will get better. it may just take a while. before i tryed to do what you are talking about it was pour dean now its now he went nuts after his stroke. im not nuts its just very hard to get across to them that iv just changed it well make you very bitter hell. i cant even get sosiol scurity to talk to me about myself. thay told me at the office thay can only talk to beth. now men that makes you feel about 2 inches tall. espeshaly when there are 40 people in the office of a small tawn. and you know most of peaple in there. iv took enough of your time hope to read more from you. i do hope you feel better just give it more time please.