My Scars

I am not sure if I have joined the correct group.  I want to share my ordeals and I want to tell people not to cut.  I have been cutting since I was about 12 years old and I am now 46..yes...I am an old cutter.  I regret what I have done to myself.  About 2 months ago I lost control and didnt know what I was doing.  I sliced the hell out of myself and ended up in the ER.  I didnt know what I was doing and I sliced myself to pieces...I had to have over 60 sutures in my wrist and I was scared to death.  I am an alcoholic and I only cut when I am drunk.  I now have these hideous scars on my arm and they will be here forever.  Please think before you do this stuptd **** to yourself.  I am drunk right now and yes...I have the urge to cut but I am doing everything in my power not to do this to myself.  I want to so bad right now....but I am doing everything not to....

wendy00 wendy00
46-50, F
1 Response Oct 1, 2009

for me it gets my mind off other things going on in my life, at least i can control something, and i only do it when im feeling really low, but i just say the cat scrathed me, it works.