All These Drugs, And Nothing Helps
I was diagnosed with major depression close to 38 years ago, and have fought it for all that time... most of it spent being a guina pig for the psych docters to try out all the newest meds on... none of which ever worked. ALL Antidepressan ts on the market have ben used on me, and to no effect... now some anto-psychotics have been addded since the experts have decided that I am bipolar. STILL nothing working, but I DO get a lot of sleep these days, and don't have to face this awful, suicidal depression for most of the day. I don't remember the last time I felt joy over anything, and I have stopped doing all my crafts all togeather. I also have panic attacks, and am of afraid to leave the house for fear that one will happen in public. Tha last time I was hospitalized for this depression, they told me that there was nothing left for me but ECT treatments, and I am so very terrified of that, so terrified ( crying now) I think I Am going to go crazy if this bout of severe depression does not lift a bit.. it's been going on for over 5 months now. Medicaid cut out the time with my therapyst, so I have no-one to talk with... no-one understands how horribly bad this is, waking up crying, crying all day, going to bed crying. My ole man just says be strong,... it will eventually go away, but it isn'y.. it ISN'T.