I constantly feel lost. I don't know which way to turn, what to do, where to go...Is this it? Is this life? I've had depression for many years now and have been in and out of its grasp. For about 7 months now I've been squeezed by it everyday. I cannot remember the last time I felt happy or genuinely laughed. I feel like I have so much love and kindness to offer, but don't know what to do with it. Or maybe don't care enough to do something with it. It's frustrating, because my life isn't that terrible by any means. It's almost like I don't have the right to be depressed. There are plenty of other people dealing with conditions a lot worse than mine will ever be so why am I feeling sorry for myself?
punkin punkin
26-30, F
3 Responses Sep 28, 2006

punkin, you have a savior who was born to save you, born to find you, and give you rest peace happiness belonging and an everlasting home and family.

travel.. try travel.. change environment and quite stimulating :D

Self-Hate Self-Pity Spirals. That's what I called it when I would pity myself, then hate myself because I didn't feel I deserved to be depressed, which would make me even sadder and feel more sorry for myself... which led to more hate. A never ending cycle.

sometimes true

for this purpose the son of man was manifested, shown, appeared , to destroy the works of the devil in your life, ask him to be your lordand savior, and he will set you free forever, he paid the price so he has all authority to do