This Is Fing Retared!!

My body literally just physically and mentally abused me.

I was trying to get rid of Sean, get him out of my life for good so i did the last step and it broke my heart, literally. and the only way to make the pain go away was to talk to him. All I wanted to do was lash out and yell at him and say hate full things but my mind wouldnt let me and every time i said something mean my mind would tell me to tell him i was lying and that i loved him and if i didnt my body would just start to hurt really badly.

For example: Sean just said "I wish there was someone here"

My first thought was "I wish I was there so I could use you as a punching bag" and my chest started to hurt.

and here come the chills. this is not going to be a fun week.

YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet
26-30, F
1 Response Feb 15, 2010

It finally ended about 24 hours later and i pray to god it never comes back. It was the strangest experience I have ever been through.