It Is Happening Again

I thought I was doing well. I had high spirits throughout the holidays, a few low points here and there but nothing devastating. Heck, I did alright through Valentine's Day but the night before, I found out that a woman I missed an opportunity with had found someone. I hadn't spoken with her for several months but as soon as I saw pictures of her and the new man in her life, I just crumbled.

 

At first it started with me wanting to go to bed in the middle of the day. Then I was staring blankly while having lunch. At night, I didn't talk to a girl I had recently been making small talk with, possibly with hopes of asking her out. She quickly turned to me a few times, albeit briefly, but it looked like she was waiting for me to make the first move. Then as I was driving home, I was short-tempered and letting out some road rage in the form of yelling, grunting, and hitting my steering wheel.

 

I hate that this is happening to me again. All those feelings of worthlessness and regret are coming back.

mhalberstram mhalberstram
26-30, M
1 Response Feb 18, 2010

Thanks CrazyPeas. I have been shoving those mental gremlins from me and have been doing better than when I posted my previous.