I Honestly Don't Know What Is Wrong

I'm having a hard time today and I don't know why.  Everything seems mostly ok, or better than ok, but I feel so sad I've been crying.  I used to think it was boredom and fear that made me depressed, but I now I'm not really bored and my future looks fairly good.  So why do I feel so sad? I try to be optimistic, but today I just feel so so sad.  It's making me angry that I'm so sad with no good reason.  I wonder, though- two years ago at exactly this time I had a miscarriage.  Does my body remember what my brain doesn't want to?  But that doesn't explain the other times when this happens.  Is it just a chemical thing, that could be fixed with a chemical solution?  What exactly is going on, and how do I figure it out?  I don't want to suffer and become useless with pointless sorrow. 

mexpat mexpat
41-45, F
3 Responses Mar 4, 2010

Thank you tazzy3, I really appreciate your comment. Things got better after I had a healthy lunch. A big hug back to you!

Thank you tazzy3, I really appreciate your comment. Things got better after I had a healthy lunch. A big hug back to you!

i am so sorry you are feeling this way i know how you feel but when i get like this i feel like im totaly on my own i want you to know you are not on your own even if it feels that way i am having a realy bad day 2day at the mo trying to find the energy to was my hair even thats an effort sending you a big hug x