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I Don't Want To Be Depressed Anymore.

I can remember having depression ever since I was in the third grade. I've always felt unwanted and alone, There are a lot of times I cry because it gets so bad recently on Christmas eve my school was having a party and I just sat there crying to myself because everyone else was so happy and I didn't know how to be. I want to get help for it but until I graduate from technical school and get a job I'm still going to suffer through it. I've tried talking to my mother about getting help for it but she thinks I just have to deal with it and doesn't want me to go on anti depressants or I'll get hooked on them. So I don't know what to do =(

Klong91 Klong91 22-25, F 21 Responses Mar 6, 2010

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I hope people get a hold of me , Ive been free from depression for 18yrs and I want to share my testimony that has brought others peace of mind and heart. Call or text me at 206 293 4076 cell , this is Matthew

i was born with bi-poler one and the meds help but you also need a support group,this will be the first time that i might get the help i need, after hurting myself and ending up in the E.R. i will be here for you if you need to talk i understand very much

@Evolett its funny how most people tink kids in africa have nuffn, we are rich and dats y germans, chinese and americans cnt get dier hands off our soil. well dats not d point here, @ y'äll depression has its root in devil and sin. seek Gods help and be free for eva. as i write dis, i was sad few minutes ago but now i feel beta after reading Gods word.

everyone on this site that i googled is describing how i feel, so glad im not the only one, even tho commen sense lets me know there are a lot like us

You can't get hooked on the modern antidepressants, I urge you to reconsider seeking the help you need. The longer you wait, the harder it will be. Your mother obviously doesn't understand true depression. People do not just "deal with it."<br />
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you deserve a happy life and you can have it, if you'll take the step of getting the help you need.<br />
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I'm always willing to listen if you need someone to talk to.<br />
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Take care, lovely lady.<br />

I feel sad almost every day I am 28 and I wanna change I have a seven yr old son and I don't want him to see me like this I just found out I am pregnant and it is making me feel worst I just want to. Climb out of bed and feel better but today is not that day for me I wish I had someone who understands me boyfriend is the complete oppisite he is so out going and just never understands he is always doing stuff somtimes I don't even see him all day I feel like I'm so needy and annoying or nagging him I just don't wanna be this person help me !!!

i've suffered from depression since I was 16. Im 24 now and... I once took a natural juice called Goji. It helped! I had energy, i was happy! I had lots of motivation. I think i need to find it again. Another thing that helps is, achievements. Try to do stuff that makes you feel proud of yourself. Work on your talents, keep yourself busy. If you are stressed, go to a place where you can relax and calmn down. If you are sad, dont focus on the feeling. It only makes it worse. Think of other people that are in worse situations like kids in africa... That have nothing! At least that helped me. Tell yourself you are worth it, beautiful, smart, etc..even if it seems odd, just say it. Smile when you say it. Tell yourself this is just temporary.

im scared my depression is going to last forever, can you tell me where i can find this juice?

Hey, I too have been depressed for a long time on and off, sometimes I don't even know it. Recently, I have been coming to terms with a depressive period, I'm trying to figure out why I was depressed and also how not to be depressed in the future. I had some of the same issues as you, believing that no one cares, and that things are pointless, and how I am a failure at everything and that is a very saddening fact, etc. I have found that maybe, and I say maybe because I have just started to come to terms with this past depressive experience, that the way to look at it is, to be happy yourself, that you have to just choose happiness, I know that sounds a little bit obvious, and maybe not so much an answer because after all you would if you could. But I found I was putting a lot of pressure on myself, and that this pressure, when I didn't meet or succeed at goals, it upset me and depressed me. Instead in the future I think I will say to myself that my first goal is to be happy, to enjoy life for what it is. To enjoy myself for who I am, and choose my happiness before I beat myself up for failing at something, or not being as good as someone else, or not achieving something at the level I would like to achieve. In regard to you, if your goals at this point are social, don't be depressed that you are alone, be happy first, be happy that you have the opportunity to be social, and then go out and be social, and if the socializing doesn't meet up to your standards be happy that you have high standards of socializing. But in regard to socializing, I know for a fact that people don't like to hang out with depressed people. So be happy when you are with other people. I appreciate you posting this topic, being able to write about it has made me feel better.

Usher3951 if God wants to find me he knows where I am.

What a man desires is Unfailing Love<br />
-Proverbs 19:22<br />
That's a love that only God can fulfill. Seek God, because he is searching for you.

I have been battling depression for some time now like you. I would suggest you see a general medical doctor and a psychologist. <br />
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Anti-depressants are not an addictive drug per say, whilst you need to slowly come off of them rather than immediately stopping, you will not find yourself craving them or getting high. They work (when they do, you may need to try a few before finding the one that is suitable for you) by smoothing out the difference between your ups and your downs, thereby giving you a smoother baseline mood.<br />
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It's important to remember that medication alone also isn't the answer, you'll need to examine thought patterns et cetera, psychologists often try cognitive behavioral therapy and have varied levels success with such.<br />
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If you need someone to talk to, your more than welcome to drop me a message.

We're on the same page, I know how you feel. I feel unwanted by everyone.

i feel as if no one wants me. i dont belong in this world

Awww don't say that *hugs* it may seem like theres no one there but there are.

i feel the same way abot life. tired of crying and being depressed <br />
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my meds dont help<br />
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i have no friends

Really good insights Zee Zee Top! Untill recently I had the same problem.. would bend over backwards to try to help people but also expect the same level of attention back.. and would always be dissapointed and let down.. It all comes down to setting boundaries, something that Ive had no idea about all my life. <br />
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You have to understand that you are one making the decision- its fine to be nice and do things for people but you cant expect anything in return.. People are going to act how they feel like acting and most probably are not going to make you part of the equation unless it suites them..<br />
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You cant keep score.. be who you are regardless of other peoples action or inactions..

If you have battled depression since you were in third grade, you most likely have a chemical imbalance. Most people do not get hooked on anti-depressants and they are hard to abuse. They don't give you a "high" and they don't make you artificially happy. You still feel whatever you're feeling, just your baseline "low" is raised. <br />
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If you want to try natural, sunlight and exercise will give your body endorphins. St John's wort helps, too, but it will counteract hormonal birth control if you are on it. <br />
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Good luck. Depression sucks.

Thank you =) and about the medicine I really don't want to go on any but after almost 10 years of feeling like this and countless hours of counseling I don't have many other options.

hey klong... just wanted to touch on some of the stuff you said... really sorry that your going through your tough times.. please just remember your not alone so dont think something is wrong with you. depression is out there..the worlds tough and people are selfish... thing is you can overcome it.. but i want you to start looking at things differently... focus on you.. thing is you cant depend on others much... alot of the times we are depressed its cause of dissapointments of others... also i wish your mom would try and understand and support you.. alot of people dont understand depression so they just think you gotta tough it up... ignorance.... but i do agree with zztop and the meds... it works for some yes.. some no.. but one thing i want you to notice is that you really get dependent on them and you gatta keep raising the dosages... so be careful if you go that way.. but if things hit the hellzone and you gatta use it then do... i hope you get some support and plz know that even if you gotta use ep to vent and get support then so be it... guess alot of us will try to support you best we can under the circumstances... stay strong...

Trust me I have tried to figure it out. I try to think what could be causing it and I've always been one to tell myself not to expect everyone to be like me or react the same way as me because they are who there are and I'm who I am. I know what you mean about being too good to people I am the same way and often times I don't want to be because it just never seems like they appreciate it but I can't stop.

Hi Klong91,<br />
I'm very sorry to hear your story. Being a fellow depression-sufferer for some 15 years (im 29 now), I can understand your frustration. Unfortunately, I dont know you, so I can't tell you what you can or can't do, but I'll give my best advice.<br />
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first of all, you claim you want to take anti-depressants. you mother is right to be concerned with being addicted - i took AD meds for quite a while and it was a pain for me to stop. Additionally, it never worked for me. that isnt to say it's useless - i'm sure many had a positive outcome - but to me it didnt help. Either way, dont look at it as a "solution" to your problem - it may help, but that's it. Rather, try to find out what the source of your problems are and work on it.<br />
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One thing I foudn interesting is how you feel nobody loves you - I feel that exact same way. Why dont my "friends" ask me to hang out with them? Why am i the only one to make the effort? etc... of course, being in bad terms with virtually all my family (brothers and parents), does not help either. Eventually (very recently, actually) I think I figured out what my problem was (or at least one of them): i had unrealistic expecations of how people should react. I did something nice for them and expected something back. In other words, I was 'too good' to people.<br />
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I decided that the best thing to do was not to be "too good" anymore. I wont help unless they ask (i may offer if I feel necessary, but that's the limit). If ppl dont call, I wont call them etc... I learned (over a long conversation with a friend who's having the same issues as I) that i should treat people the way they treat me, give or take. And dont expect things from people, as it leads to disappointment.<br />
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OK, so perhaps this does not apply directly to you (or does it?), but the idea is the same: try to figure out WHY you feel people dont like you. are they not calling you? do they laugh at eachother's jokes and ignore you? Try to dig deeper into this (a psychiatrist may help in figuring it out) and I'm sure figuring out your problem, you can find a way to solve it, as I have (so far, at any rate :-))<br />
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Good luck and feel free to message me if u think i can help!