There Are Times

there are times when i have everthing i need to be happy but then this feeling hunts me over leaving me deserted, alone. it seams that i can't find that best friend that i can tell everything to and a friend to give me advise. i have a boyfriend but it only makes me more depressed. we almost never talk and when we get to see each other i don't feel what i want to feel. i don't feel exited to see him. all this feelings are just pushing me away from everyone i want to be with. it makes me feel excluded from the circle of happines.

cris90 cris90
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 7, 2010

hopefully we will :( >> :l >> :)

truly every word that you wrote fits how I feel. its like a rollarcoaster, unwanted ride, yet we have to deal with it. I have been feeling this way for a couple of months now, its getting worse... i have this feeling, like im always doing something wrong, and live on my tippy toes. i have a bf too, but never share anything about these issues to him or anyone, well, i can confide in my sister 100% but still, i feel as if, im a pain in the butt, by whining so much about these issues. i get so sad and mad easily, my friends are probably thinking im crazy.... its never been this bad, where i always put myself down. <br />
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i hope somehow we over come this rollorcoaster :(