It Got Worse

I think I might be having a panic attack. I've been overcome by this general sense of dread, and it brought restlessness and irregular breathing with it. I can hardly bring myself to sit still, and I've got the jitters all over, and, I'm breathing rather infrequently. I think it has something to do with my intense desire to take a hiatus from school, and the poor response my family would have upon hearing that. I'm a little worried, actually, because they say they're supposed ot go away after 20 minutes, but... This one started about 11:00 PM last night, let up (I took that opportunity to go to sleep), and started back the moment I woke up this morning.

Before anyone asks, there are no substances of any kind involved.

I desperately need to get away from everything for a while. I just wish I could.

b1alasdair b1alasdair
18-21, M
3 Responses Mar 15, 2010

Well you can't change the past, and the only way the past can or will effect your future is if you choose to let it. The past is the past it is gone behind you cnd you cannot bring it back in any type of reality. The only way the past can survive or make it's selfe present is if you keep it inside your head. Otherwise it is truley dead. But you have a living breathing future in front of you just waiting for you to jump in behind the wheel, and go for a ride and decide what you want to do. The future is a place you can actually make things happen. Living in the past would be like plying a video game with no controll paddles on it for you to participate. Set hat old toy side and get this new one with contropll paddles that you can controll your own destiny with.

"I desperately need to get away from everything for a while. I just wish I could."<br />
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There's the problem, it's cause, and the beginning of the solution.

Sounds rough. If you need a break, freakin take one. Screw everybody- if you need it, get it.