Long Nights

Pathetic. That sums up my personal status at this point, at least that's how I feel. I'm currently at the peak of my loneliness and I feel as though I can't get out of this depressing state. Now before I continue this vent session, I feel you need to know that I have very close friends that actually make my life extremely happy. The seclusion I feel is not from people in general, but from my significant other and the fact that I dont have a significant other. Its gotten to the point of me catching myself wishing to be held, or having someone to whisper sweet nothing's to (forgive my being cliche). I don't know, I'm just tired of hoping and waiting for the "right one " to walk through the door, ya know? I'm not gunna lie, I honestly miss the feel of another girls touch. But that's not all I want. You see, in all of my past relationships physical intimacy was the foundation of everything. I'm tired of just looking forward to a kiss or anything of that sort. I want a level of connection that allows a psychological foundation to occur. What I want more than anything is to be able to lie down on a bed with a girl right next to me and just talk all night long. What about, I'm not sure. It could be anything, anything at all. I'm tired of spending night after night running scenarios through my head. I would like to fall asleep next to someone I truly love. I thank you for taking time to read this, and if you have any comments or questions, be them positive or negative, feel free to post something. Once again thank you.