What To Do!?......

I guess I can start by saying it started January 1st,2007....the was the night that my "husband" had asked me out! You know the story of how its great at first but then one day,you get up..and it starts to tumble and doesnt seem to want to stop.This relationship had a rocky start because we were young and family members were trying to stop us from doing...exactly what happened.We had moved in our first apartment together 6 months after we started dating,got engaged in the 7month,got pregnant in our 8th month.It was all fine until I was 4 months pregnant,and I found "THE EMAIL"..the email that would lose all trust in my fiance(at the time)...I somehow forgave him and we moved on....so I thought.....these emails kept happening,he kept leaving and coming back,and leaving and coming back..well you get the story.We had our first child(our daughter) and everything was great..until it wasnt...I still to this day do not understand what exactly went wrong..I will someday find out though...but back to the story...the fighting was happening alot more...he was leaving more often...I do not know what made me allow him to keep coming back..Love? I still to this day think thats what it was....In march 2009,when we were on our "routine break"..I found out I was pregnant with our 2nd child(our son)....we got back together to keep this family together and not to be a statistic because we knew that we wanted to be together for the rest of our lives. We finally made a date to get married..June 5th,2009..WHAT A DAY!...it was pretty special....We were happy once again..back to our old selves of pure joy....a few days after Fathers Day..there was an argument..which turned into a fight..which turned into him leaving again..a month into the marriage...and I was goiing for a divorce..man o man....what did I get myself into? We stayed friends for the sake of the kids..and believe me..it was not easy knowing the feelings between us! All I have to say..is Thanks to a concert....a house of turmoil..brought us back together....my husband was watching his neice and nephew on this particular weekend..I was bringing my cousin over to play because they were all really good friends...we got to talking..and it went from there...Months past..we had our few arguments..but had them,and kept going with life..sure there were days he wanted to run..but didnt! So why do I write this story..well because..its easter..and Im in my home..alone...My "seperated husband" has the kids at his place....why? because 2 days ago..that chat,turned into an argument..turned into a fight..which turned into him leaving again.....So here I am...not knowing what to do..I have a class in 2 days for a divorce session..dont want to go through with the divorce because this man is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.....WHAT TO DO!?

KatyK09 KatyK09
18-21, F
2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

They say that love is blind and I think for you that is the case. You love him and want to spend the rest of your life with him, but at what cost? You don't want you kids to grow up around constantly aguing parents, you don't want it to get to the stage where you cannot stand the sight of each other. No can really tell you what to do, only you can decide on that.

omg...i know it seems like im stalking you but why do you want to stay with him? He makes arguments because its an excuse to push you away and point the finger....he basically pushed you into divorce on purpose so he didnt look like the "bad guy" Im sorry hun but he wants sex not marriage.