I Hate Myself So Much.
Every day I look at myself and feel sick.
My boyfriend always tells me i'm beautiful, i'm this - i'm that. And I keep having to tell him that it doesn't matter what he says or how often he says it I will never take it in or believe him.
I've self harmed in many ways.. I hate the way I look.. I hate my stomach.. I hate my stupid head problems.. I hate the way I never seem to be able to say the right thing.. I hate the way I never seem to be able to keep friends or get along with people.. I hate the way that whenever I get to over excited because of my head problems I make a total idiot of myself and end up looking like a complete freak.. And I hate how I can't stop hating myself and I don't know how to start loving myself instead.
I wish someone could help me and that there help would actually.. help. :S
.. I don't know what else to say. I didn't mean to write so much. -.-'