I Base My Self-esteem On Others Alot.
People are very weird with me. I get alot of attention and am told I am pretty, but lots of people don't seem to like me. I feel like I don't really connect with others and I always feel like people don't want to include me in their conversations.
As such, instead of thinking that it's their problem, I internalize it to think that there must be something wrong with me. I start thinking of myself as a worthless loser with no friends. In turn, I try so hard to please everyone that they end up using me and disrespecting me more because I have no backbone.
It's just a cycle I will probably battle my whole life!