I Keep It All Inside...

They tell me I'm pretty...They tell me I'm a good person...They tell me I'm an honest person...But do they really know I"m a liar...I'm ugly...I'm not lovable enough for you to except me....I want so much to tell them I'm a liar...because of those lies I feel hatred for myself...I don't want to lie for you to love me...I don't want to hate myself...I'm so wretched even I hate myself...I hate lying...I lie because I Iove...I lie because i'm afraid you would be hurt by me...I'm not the beautiful angel you see...and I spend every second of my life trying to correct what's done...so afraid to do wrong...

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13-15
2 Responses Feb 11, 2010

I understand what you are going through....because im going through something much similar. message me sometime so we can talk about this.

Hi, I haven't been on here for a long time (looks like you too) but, I read your story and I want to learn more--- I hope you are well.