Today I had a bad anxiety attack at work. I was shaking and sweating, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it and I was crying, I was clenching my fists so hard my knuckles were white and I couldn't move from the spot I was rooted too after it started when I was in a quiet spot. I left work early and came home. I curled up in a little ball on my bed. I wanted nothing more than to have someone crawl into bed with me a hold me. But I am a single working mom of 2 with very little support. I had no one I could call that would come. My anxiety attacks are something where I know I am dreaming out and I know I need to calm down, but no matter how hard I try I can't. I fell asleep for a bit under a heavy blanket I was using to mimic the feeling of someone there, but when I woke later I was still not better.
InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 19, 2014

I also battle depression and anxiety...I cry a lot but hide it the best I can from my two daughters. I know God gave me my daughters to make me stronger...when they hug me, kiss me or look at me with a smile full of love it makes me smile back at them and move...Take them to the park or down the block for some ice cream. My angels keep me strong because they love me and want nothing more in return but for me to love them back. Stay strong for your kids it worth it :)