Darkness Go Away
It's always with me. Sometimes inside me sooo quietly that I don't even know it's there. Other times like now, it's strong, it's taking over. I fight it as best I can. I'm afraid, uncomfortable. The little girl inside me comes out, her feelings control my mind. There's no where to go, I cannot escape it. It surrounds me.
I call to my husband. I tell him, I'm afraid. He already knows what that means. So he holds me, sitting there quietly with me. My tears start to run down my face. Past pain, hurt comes to the surface. I have to remind myself that all of those monsters from my past are all gone now. Only the bad memories hidden away in my mind. They come back to haunt me.
It's ok Lily. You've been through this many times before. It will pass. The dark scary world will go away.....the light will come back...