Life

I am having a very hard time dealing with my life and where I am in my life. I wanted to be married with children by now and  I am not. My mother and I moved into a really nice house and after 2 years my sister and her family moved in. Which was ok until my mom passed away suddenly. I lived with them for about 4 years and it turned into a livng hell. So I got kicked out of the house. I moved in with a friend of mine.  So with in the last year or so, I have been dealing with depression so much that this Feb, I was admitted into the hospital with depression and suicide. I have lost interest in my job, my fun and family. I don't want to do anything, but stay at home and be with my friends here. Yes, I do go out with friends, but if I don't know you, I get real anxious and panic. I see a christian coun. every week who has been there for me, every step of the way, as well as a wonderful friend. But I know that I am on the up swing of this, but there are still days that I want to die and be with my mother. My sister calls me stupid for feeling this way. What can I do.

antofthre antofthre
36-40
Mar 22, 2009