My Head Is Spinning

not sure where 2 start,i have a muscular disease,chronic asthma+diabetes,im mostly house bound+have been told im very like;y 2 have a heart attack,with all this stuff going on,i often think whats the point,some times my body is so numb that i want 2 cut myself just 2 feel something
i have tried 2 kill myself twice,
if it wasnt 4 the shame it wud bring 2 my family i may try again,some days im good+things ok,but i still think bout killing myself+feel im just 1 bad day away from doing it
spencerried spencerried
26-30, M
Jan 18, 2011