It Does Not Matter

Nothing anybody says helps nothing I say can explain I dont know why, I cant live in your own skin its only a matter of time. If I was suppose to live then life would have trowen me a life line by now.Its just the way nature works only the fittest will survive. By terminating I will do atleast one good thing in my life!!!!!!!!!

Dont tell me to find help there is nun or to hold on nothing to hold on to,dont even know why I am writting just delaying the end. I aa sick screwup pathetic and shelfish add what ever you wish..................

Sorry I hope you  find some answers and happiness  I have spread enough darkness for one lifetime sorry !!!!!!! Take Care

Blind Blind
36-40, F
4 Responses Aug 12, 2007

One of my dearest friends just committed suicide a month ago. I experiences suicide ideation and still do at times, fighting with each single moment to not go out like her, or not go out like that. All I can really say, is don't isolate yourself, get out there and talk to someone. Even if you sound negative or "dark" THAT IS HOW YOU FEEL. There are people, doctors, authority figures, family, friends SOMEONE who will help. Don't let the door slam in your face. You deserve a chance, just like she did and I do!

Hey, Blind! I'm new here. I just read this and wanted to let you know that I have been in your position. I had post partum depression and didn't know it but I have been there. <br />
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It does feel hopeless and you feel worthless but hun, it really isn't hopeless and you definitely are not worthless at all.<br />
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I made it through suicidal thoughts but I had to get help. I am n ot saying run as fast as you can to a dr but it wouldn't hurt. OK, I won't push. I just want you to know that you are not alone. I have been there!!!!!!! If you need someone to talk to or vent to or whatever, just let me know. I am still new to this so it may take a while to get back to ya but I will get back to ya!!! LOL<br />
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I will continue to check and see if you respond to this and you and I can chat if you wish!

Thank you all for caring enough to reply I appreaciate it and yes it has kept me alive.<br />
Not sure where to post or reply still abit overwhelemd with all the sections her on EP .I cant help but feel so pathetic selfish and unthankfull for not being able to cope with my life, when there are so many like yourselfs with real problems.

hello! Well, we are unable to help you. Some times one is the only one that can help oneself. hmm, have you ever seen an animal kill itself with purpose? I think you are wonderful.<br />
But if you want to die, it is none of our business.<br />
However, if I wanted to die, I wouldn't kill myself just like that.<br />
I'd go out and do something extremely fun etc... So if you are dogged in leaving this world, you should do something that makes your entire life worthwhile, for example, go out on an adventure etc! Do something fun! <br />
We only live once, and our whole life is an experiment. And why stop after having done nothing really. So you gotta do something! :)