2,000 or so calories
That's how many I'm required to consume each & every day.
But how?
Why would I do that?
That's so much & it disgusts me to no end.
It's like they're asking me to eat a stick of butter!
No no I want let them dictate my weight.
Never again.

I will feel skinny
I will take as little space as possible just you wait & see.
Then maybe the voices will go away
Maybe then I'll hate myself less for eating so much.
I feel so much better when I'm on an empty stomach.
I feel in control.
Sure it hurts or feels weird, but I don't feel disgusting if I'm empty.
Plus I've eaten too much today.
laten14 laten14
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 26, 2014

I love this. It's exactly how I feel