I Am Lost

Due to events I had no control over, and had no knowledge of the man I love no longer wishes to associate with me. He was my dom. I was his sub. I have no light to follow... I have no lips to kiss... I have no heart to hold. Lost.
Vikingsdragon Vikingsdragon
31-35, F
4 Responses Jan 12, 2013

xcome to me lets chat an see if we r compatible and if u can please me as ur master

Have you taken the time for yourself to reasses what you are seeking in the way of a D/s relationship? There are many levels and types of commitment in a D/s relationship. Your safety is most important Before you do anything else talk with other on e p for there advise and experiences.

I have taken time. I have spent a good deal of it among family and friends to think about where I want to go. I am doing better now. I would have written back earlier but my laptop crashed and I had to have it fixed. But thank you.. It was never an issue of safety.. it was detachment.. After being conditioned for so long to need my ex-dom, not necessarily physically or financially or what-have-you, but to need his strength and guidance.. he was my rock.. my foundation.. it has been a harsh adjustment. I am still at a loss for him.. I loved him, not only because he was my dom, but because I knew him as a person, and he knew me as a person as well. I am not sure what made him up and leave, I may never know... but despite this I know that whatever it was.. must have been a very good reason.. Still hurts tho... But thank you for your concern and your words. They have helped a lot. They really have.

You are welcome If at anytime you would like to chat about this or anything else Just send me an emial here at ep or if you would like I can always send you another address. No obligation on you its good to have a person to talk to.

Thank you.. that would be lovely.

E mailme at thestriker@cox.net I check it frequently and will respond back to you

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When this happens with no warnig it can take everything out of you and leave you feeling hollow. When the trust and respect that has been built between the Dom and their sub has been shattered it feels like you can never recover. There will be a person you can trust again it will take time.

Thank you for your words.

awww hun i am so so so so sorry. I understand how you feel even though i didnt physically know mine in person. xxxxxxxx

Thank you, Giggles... this happened almost a month ago now, I have just now been able to talk about it and get back online.. i have been so terrified that he would pop up and i would see him and I just dont think i could handle it.. I dont have anymore tears... I dont have anything else to give..