Addiction

: compulsive need for and use of a habit-forming substance (as heroin, nicotine, or alcohol) characterized by tolerance and by well-defined physiological symptoms upon withdrawal; broadly : persistent compulsive use of a substance known by the user to be harmful

that is a slap in the face reality check definitions of addiction. my addiction was meth use which only masked my alcoholism. During my time of sobriety from all substances i have found that alcohol has me hooked it has been easier to lay down the needle then it has been to put down the bottle. this "problem" has taken my world from me. my children are in foster care because of my disease. i have found that if i don't drink then my desire to "use" is not there. maintaining sobriety seems like a lonely road even if you go to A.A or N.A yes they are people that understand but like most addicts alcoholics we use and drink because we can't handle our emotions. what i have found to be useful is to see a psychologist on a regular basis and to journal all the emotions that i bottle up. mind you no one has to read what you write unless you believe it will help you. writing it gets it out of your head and reading it helps you to manage the emotions of the issue better....just my experience. slowly but surely i am beginning to like the person i am becoming and realizing i need to understand the person that drank and used so that i can arrest the problem. but most of all our addictions DO NOT define us it is merely a problem that we face and shall over come.
charmed88101 charmed88101
36-40, F
3 Responses Jun 19, 2011

thank you for sharing your story and that beautiful smile. we r very similar just my addiction is crack and i havent lost my 2 yr old son YET

thank you for sharing your story and that beautiful smile. we r very similar just my addiction is crack and i havent lost my 2 yr old son YET

thank you for sharing your story and that beautiful smile. we r very similar just my addiction is crack and i havent lost my 2 yr old son YET