They Always Say

People always tell me I'm too hard on myself. Ever since I was 12 I've hurt myself physically and emotionally whenever I was angry. When I was 12 I would skip meals because it felt right to hurt myself. I felt like I deserved it. I battle with eating disorders and self mutilation due to this insecurity. I know I shouldn't do these things and I've gotten better, but I constantly blame myself. If only I had done this, or said that. If only was never born, then I would never have to deal with anything. I'm always overwhelmed. I just wish I didn't have to deal with anything. That I could just sleep and live in my dreams forever.

yisrael yisrael
18-21, F
1 Response Feb 11, 2009

That's a good point, it's just hard to stop this insecurity