Jacked Up.

an example of the garbage overrunning ep these days  http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Want-To-Be-Raped-Repeatedly/1097267
jerrica jerrica
51-55, F
5 Responses Jul 14, 2010

I find homosexuality disgusting. Many people find oral sex and anal sex disgusting. Some people find all sex disgusting. People find any sex that does not appeal to them personally disgusting. Children find a male and female kissing disgusting.
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Ninety percent of female survivors of sexual abuse, rape and ****** have a rape fetish and have rape fantasies. Reliving their past is the only way for survivors of rape to heal.
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To understand why rape survivors need to relive their past to heal you need to study psychology. Specifically, you need to the research of Ivan Pavlov, BF Skinner, Allan R. Wagner, Robert A. Rescorla and Wilhelm Maximilian Wundt.
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You have to study classical conditioning, operant conditioning and the following concepts: desensitization, exposure therapy, flooding therapy, habituation, aversion therapy, psychodrama, catharsis, "extinction" of triggers & flashbacks, primal scream therapy and more.
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We all become imprinted by our first sexual experience. Most females who are raped can only experience sexual pleasure and ****** if they relive their rape with a partner they love and makes them feel safe.
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Romantic love is new. Females have been programmed by evolution to physically enjoy rape, even if it emotionally traumatizes them and causes them great emotional pain.
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Female experience the strongest ******* when they are being raped. Some females think they are crazy because their rape did not cause them any emotional harm. In fact, their rape was so pleasurable, they deliberately try to get raped again by strangers. They deliberately place themselves in situations where they know there is a high likelihood the will get raped.
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There are many reasons rape can provide the most intense sexual experience. When someone is being raped, their body is flooded with adrenalin. Fear produces adrenalin. Pain floods the brain with endorphins and dopamine. That is the reason people eat hot spicy foods that burn the mouth, then go on to eat hotter spicier foods until they kill all their taste buds.
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Addiction to pain and the resultant endorphins is why people get addicted to running and lifting weights. And it is one reason why survivors of abuse get addicted self-mutilation, to cutting their arms, legs and body with a razor blade. Cutting their body because a substitute for sex. Cutting floods their brain with endorphins and dopamine. And it relieves their stress.
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All addictive drugs like cocaine and heroin stimulate the part of the brain that was designed to generate sexual pleasure. Sex is a drug. Cocaine and heroine flood the brain with the chemicals sex does. Cocaine and heroine are substitutes for sex, chocolate, sweets and cheese.
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Females who are survivors of sexual abuse, rape and ****** often suffer depression and anxiety their entire lives. They are often suicidal. But they have better sex live than females who were never abused and never raped.
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Survivors have the most pleasurable sex lives of all females. Their abuse breaks down their sexual inhibitions. This creates in them an overwhelming craving for sex. Survivors of abuse often have a hunger for sex that rivals or exceeds the male sex drive.
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Female survivors of sexual abuse fall in love with dominant males who have a high sex drive.
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For most females survivors of sexual abuse, getting "raped" is not a desire, but a need and an overwhelming compulsion.
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The ultimate sexual pleasure people experience is giving sexual pleasure. Rape victims often experience more sexual pleasure than the person raping them. Giving oral sex is an empathic, vicarious sexual pleasure. No one would perform oral sex on a sex doll. It would be pointless.
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I am a loving dominant sadistic male into BDSM. I am also a submissive masochist. I don't get pleasure from pain. Pain does not turn me on. I get pleasure don't get pleasure from being used and abused. I hate it.
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However, I do get vicarious, empathic pleasure from females using and abusing me. It is not the use and abuse I seek. It is the ability to give females satisfaction, it is the ability to help females heal, it is the ability feel females experience catharsis. Catharsis is emotionally painful. It is an emotional ******. It causes tears, but it also heals and generates relief from deep emotional pain.
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Finally, survivors can't enjoy normal, vanilla sex, because sex triggers flashbacks and extremely painful memories. But when a female is painfully raped, the pain and fear overrides blocks out emotional pain.
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That is why people who experience emotional pain often hurt themselves physically. Physical pain blocks out emotional pain. And fear focuses the mind on the present, not the past. Fear floods the body with adrenalin and adrenalin increases blood flow and circulation, and it triggers a massive flood of endorphins in the brain.
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This is why people become adrenalin junkies and engage in dangerous sports and behaviors that can result in their death. The high people get from adrenalin and sex combined is the highest form of ecstasy.
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Many females learned how to disassociate during their childhood. They learned how not to feel physical pain by leaving their bodies. When submissive, masochistic females are whipped, they dissociate and go into "subspace" where they feel no pain. When they are in subspace they cannot talk or use their safe word. You could cut-off their hand and they would not feel it.
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What female masochists do feel when they go into subspace is the flood of endorphins and dopamine in their brain. When females go into subspace, they experience heaven. That is why they become addicted to subspace. They may even put up with highly abusive relationships, if their partner is able to help them reach subspace.
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Submissive masochistic females will fall in love with any person who can take them to subspace.
Most therapists, psychologists and psychiatrists do not understand the BDSM dynamic. You can't understand the ecstasy submissive, masochistic females feel when they enter subspace unless you have experienced yourself.

crazy, just crazy.

isn't it though??

what kind of mind, person has fantasies like that?

it's not something i get either, destiney. it's great to be sexually adventurous but i wouldn't think anyone would want to add rape to the to do list.

so right. what more can you say about filth like this?

rape is not sex, it's an act of violence. as for the types of sex you mention, i'm cool with that. i'm just not down with acts of violence being perpetrated against women or anyone.

twisted as that thought is, if it floats their boat then that's their perogative. i don't share that view and that's MY perogative. nuff said.

disgusting story, disgusting group, disgusting woman. nuff said.