I believe this completely and it is incorporated deeply into he thread of my being. There are things that I don't utter. I don't say "I'll love you forever". I say things like, "I see no reason that I would stop wanting to be with you." I don't foresee a reason because I don't have a pathway of vision into the future. There are certain people in my life that it is very hard to imagine I would ever stop loving. I never doubt that it could happen. I have a wonderful life with wonderful people in it. I really do. I don't assume that they will always be with me or that they will always want to be. It is this odd parameter I attach to all relationships. It exists for the now and I continue to foster an evolving bond. I think that I would be a completely different person if I thought in terms of security and constant stability. Change and tragedies would be harder to deal with. It would be a surprise. Perhaps the reason I believe that everything and anyone can change is because I change. I let myself come to a different conclusion or respond in a different way.
There is this whole other aspect which is that I am constantly craving change. I get very antsy being in a certain situation or place for long. I really try to change this about myself. I tend to always fail. How ironic, I can't change in order to not want change. I do things to instigate it which I may not do on a conscious level. I don't purposely want to hurt someone. I almost see it as what is good for them to. They need to change and grow and being with me makes them complacent. So if I just keep things constant and don't change I figure the urge will subside at some point. Action becomes the habit and desire. Right??? It hasn't worked yet, but I am still trying.
I am fully aware of why I am like this. What is that quote about "show me a boy of 7 and I will tell you the man he will be" Some thing require more re-programming in order to change than others. Oh well.