life has trickled in disfunctions and blessings alike just to confuse me. god places these oppositions here to test and assimilate my allignment with him. tricky, yet captivating and utterly sensible when trying to catch one's attention. it's a timeline, a refuteable sequence of events that all in all states "keep trying and your purpose is much alive." to narrow, today consisted of initial unhappy thoughts and realizations, followed by a beautiful, hippie, picnic day in Davis with great conversation and endless meaning to the passage of time. solemnity can be rewarded with later comfort as long as i am dutiful to HIS will and understand HE is working within and around me.