Trying To Break My Anger CycleI am trying to break my anger cycle.
This morning I totally lost it over not being able to find the brown sugar in the pantry.
Why are they so thoughtless? Don't they know I can't waste time in the morning looking for things? Why do they shed chaos all over my superb organisation? etc
I was thought stacking, which is what I do when my anger is building.
I exploded. I knew it wasn't my husband's fault that the brown sugar was in the wrong place but he got the brunt of my ranting.
Now I am calm again and I am reflecting on what I need to do to break this cycle.
Number 1. is I need to stop thought stacking. I need to think positively at times like this. So I can't find the brown sugar! I could have honey instead. I could make a little sacrifice (not likely to happen when I am in the build up phase and looking for comfort foods.)
Fortunately, this outburst was short lived and quickly forgotten. Or so I would like to think. In reality, I know that my husband will be walking on eggshells for a while.
I really need to address the issue of frustration in my life. I need to find ways to deal positively with my annoyances. This weekend I will go and buy a heap of storage containers and organise the pantry properly, something my husband has been wanting me to do for ages. Next time something is not there that should be I will substitute and look for it later.
And I will try singing a little song, like Taddle Daddle.
Sweet, calm, smiling.
perseverer 51-55, F 12 Responses 7 Feb 2, 2012