GOD Is In Control, NOT ME!!!
I finally do believe that GOD is in control. My mom was forever telling me, "Just leave it in GOD's hands!!!" I didn't really understand. I was always thinking I was in control of everything. I made myself be a controlling person. If I controlled the situation nothing bad would happen......maybe. Well when my husbands suffered his first stroke, I lost it!!! Something that I could not control, happened!!! That totally messed with my head. There was nothing that I could do to fix my husband. This got so bad for me that I had a total mental breakdown. Many things had happened in my life that made me get to this point. My husbands stroke, and my daughter being abused by her husband put me over the edge!!! I had to learn to give GOD all my problems, fears and sadness. I had to learn to let go, and let GOD. This was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. People would tell me that GOD was in control, not me!!! All the amount of worrying that I did all those years even before my husbands strokes, was for nothing!!!
It took a few years for me to be able to give GOD all my fears, and worries. It was extemely difficult for me but I did do it. I can't tell you the major difference it has made in my life. That GOD is in control, NOT ME!!! I don't have to try to take on the world, to fix everything and everybody. I just give it to GOD!!! I'm still not perfect in this. I still do worry a tiny bit, but compared to where I used to be, it's just a major change for me. My stress level has gone much much lower than it ever was. I am at peace with the world, because GOD is in control, NOT ME!!!